I have realized that this is going to be a new chapter in my life. I feel that I have lived the first half of my life for other people, the "way I was supposed to". Not in a bad way, but in a way that I now realize was not making me happy (ya know, the "make sure everyone else around you is happy, then maybe you'll be happy if there's time" idea). I have decided recently that I want to begin to live my life for me, to do what makes me happy--maybe a new job, some new hobbies, and make some decisions for myself without always having to think how it will affect everyone in my life....oh, and just plain have some fun.
I have met someone (a year ago now) that makes me happier than I think I have ever been. He can make me feel that I am the only one in a crowded room (cliche, I know, but true). He respects me, loves me, supports me, and most importantly, lets me be who I truly am---a crazy, over-emotional, strong, chaotic, hyper woman that adores her children, her pets, and especially him. He loves my children as if they were his own, and has added more to our lives this past year than anyone I know. He may just be the kick in the arse I have needed to do this.....
My children are both teenagers now (God help me), and are needing me less and less every day (*sniff*sniff*). They are becoming the most amazing young adults, and I could not be prouder of them. With this new independence of theirs though, I am finding myself having more free time. Hopefully with this time I can work more on my photography skills, spend some time with family that I haven't seen a lot of, and whatever else might "strike my fancy", lol. I both like and don't like this phase so far, but am trying to make the most of it.
I am so very excited for this new chapter, so stay tuned because here goes nothin.....
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