Well Hot Damn.....

It's been four months and something has changed...I GOT A JOB!!!  And...I ended up exactly where I think I am meant to be.  I accepted a position working for the ARC of Monroe, the same company that gave me my first job opportunity after I graduated college.  I have always wanted to get back into this field, the timing was perfect and it just, worked.  If you know me, you know not much "just works" for me in this life, so this was a welcome surprise.  Someone during orientation this past week said, "Welcome Home!!" and that is exactly how I feel with this position, at home.

My kiddos are exstatic that I am heading back to work as well.  Not only because they will now have a little freedom after school before I get home, but because the tension in the house has almost disappeared.  I have ADHD, so it is not in my nature to sit and do nothing--it actually makes me cranky.  Since I left the U of R back in April, sitting at home is what I did most days.  Being home every day all day, with the anxiety attacks, along with not having a job, has made me a not-so-fun mama/girlfriend these past few months.  I am happy to say that I have not had an anxiety attack in over two months, and my stress is really no different than anyone elses I think, basic.  Our house is now a much happier place to be.

I feel like I haven't been this happy in years.  It seems like everything is going to be ok.  My kids are both healthy and happy, I am excited and looking forward to the challenge of this job, and my heart is very happy in my relationship.  This is the first Christmas that I can really say I have everything I ever wanted......

Merry Christmas!!

What's Up Wednesday
Why do I feel that all my posts need snappy titles?  Lol

So we are moved in to the new place....still a ton of boxes left to unpack...I have lost motivation though.  I love our new house, I just feel like there might not be enough room for all of our "stuff."  Time to really clean house, and simplify.

We bought a new-to-us camper.   I love it, we will have a lot more space when we all are there, and there is a lot more storage so we won't be falling over our camping supplies.  It's a bummer though that we bought it last weekend and we can't use it now until next season :(.  Something to look forward to I guess...

Job hunting is still in process, I have two very promising interviews this week though, so keep your fingers crossed for me.  I really need to get out of this house.  I think getting back to a normal life where I'm doing a million things at once will be so much better for me.  This being at home every day, all day is slowly killing me....

I love this season.  I love the chill in the air, the leaves changing colors, the smell of candles burning in the house, and everything pumpkin.  Fall is my all time favorite season and we are in the middle of it, that makes me extremely happy!!!!!

Thoughts on Thursday:

I HATE moving, seriously, I despise it.  Next time I will be getting packers and movers and let them worry about everything.  It was of course the hottest day of the year the day we moved--perfect right??  We have been in the new house for one week tomorrow and I still feel out of sorts and chaotic.   I swear the boxes left to unpack multiply at night while we sleep.  We still need to get some little things out of the old place, hopefully once that is done I will feel less on edge.

My kids are growing up too fast.  My first born just started his Sophmore year, and my baby began her eight grade year this week.  They have grown into sensitive, caring, respectful, hilarious, witty young adults, it's just happening too fast for me.  They just left the house to walk to the grocery store (about a mile away) together, and it was no big deal to them.  To me, it means the world that they love spending time together, and their independence is mind-boggling.

I have an interview tomorrow and I am scared shitless.  It's with a company I know a little about, doing something I've never done.  I am keeping my fingers crossed as it could be a fun job (they sought me out), but I really need to get back on the job search train and find a job...wish me luck!!

There is nothing good on TV at the moment.  I am watching "Gone in Sixty Seconds" for the millionth time, yet I still find it amazing that they get all the cars in time.  Does this kind of thing ever really happen?

I am looking forward to hopefully going to the Celtic Festival this weekend.  I went a few times to the one held in Syracuse and had a great time.  Hoping to hear some good music, eat some good food, and do a lot of people watching.

My kid brother is having surgery right now on his tear duct.  I am typically overly emotional about things, but I am rather calm about this (maybe it's the meds, lol).  I have been thinking about him all day though, missing him.  I hope all goes well and that the doctors are able to correct the collapsed duct and he will be good as new in the morning.....please keep him in your thoughts.

Ten on Tuesday

1.  Job hunting sucks....but I'm still trying to keep my chin up

2.  We are moving!!!  We found an amazing house in a better neighborhood, I cannot wait!

3.  We have two weeks to pack and move--yep, two weeks, talk about chaotic

4.  I have had two anxiety attack--free days in a row now, wahoo!!!!!

5.  My kids can be complete smart-asses, but they are funny as hell

6.  I am starting the "CizeItUp" program with my girlfriend and would be lying if I didn't say I am intimidated

7.  My puppy Ayla is deaf, which is making it a pain in the ass to train her, but I love her more every day

8.  I think my older dog Tucker is secretly mad at me for bringing the puppy home six months ago, I'm not sure if he'll ever forgive me.....

9.  We have a TV in our bedroom and I am considering not having it in our new bedroom when we move....I haven't mentioned this yet, we'll see how it goes, lol

10.  I am being much more honest on this blog than I was on my first...not that I ever lied on that blog, but it seems like it was all "everything is amazing and wonderful and there are no problems ever" all the time, when it was most definitely not all the time....

Me On Monday.....

I am looking for a new job,but better---a new path, a new direction.  I have been looking for a new job for the past year, but I realized this morning that I have been stuck in a "holding pattern."  I had been looking for a job that I needed, one that would pay the same as my previous job, one that would "utilize my management skills, human resource based."  The same thing I have been doing for the past 10 years.  I loved my job, but I am SO ready for a change!!

I am thinking that I would love to teach, or something along those lines, so I am spending my time searching for a job in that field.  Who knows, it may lead me to my dream job, or may lead me back to working in a management position.  All I do know is that I am looking with new eyes today and it will be good......

Our new life......this is the blog about how myself and my children are embarking on new realities and new normals....

I have realized that this is going to be a new chapter in my life. I feel that I have lived the first half of my life for other people, the "way I was supposed to".  Not in a bad way, but in a way that I now realize was not making me happy (ya know, the "make sure everyone else around you is happy, then maybe you'll be happy if there's time" idea).  I have decided recently that I want to begin to live my life for me, to do what makes me happy--maybe a new job, some new hobbies, and make some decisions for myself without always having to think how it will affect everyone in my life....oh, and just plain have some fun.  

I have met someone (a year ago now) that makes me happier than I think I have ever been.  He can make me feel that I am the only one in a crowded room (cliche, I know, but true).  He respects me, loves me, supports me, and most importantly, lets me be who I truly am---a crazy, over-emotional, strong, chaotic, hyper woman that adores her children, her pets, and especially him.  He loves my children as if they were his own, and has added more to our lives this past year than anyone I know.  He may just be the kick in the arse I have needed to do this.....

My children are both teenagers now (God help me), and are needing me less and less every day (*sniff*sniff*).  They are becoming the most amazing young adults, and I could not be prouder of them.  With this new independence of theirs though, I am finding myself having more free time.  Hopefully with this time I can work more on my photography skills, spend some time with family that I haven't seen a lot of, and whatever else might "strike my fancy", lol.  I both like and don't like this phase so far, but am trying to make the most of it.

I am so very excited for this new chapter, so stay tuned because here goes nothin.....